Being Trapped At Home For Years
I am so fed up.
I am chronically ill and the conditions are severe now so I am disabled and housebound too. I haven’t been out in years.
I can’t work and live on a tiny income from the only benefit I can get which totals £300 and change. That isn’t enough to live on but it is all they will give me. I can’t even afford 2 meals a day on what I get.
Every day I am stuck inside with no money and it is so depressing and so lonely.
I share the house as I can’t afford to live alone on my none existing income. You might think that means I get to talk to someone. You would be wrong.
They don’t talk to me much and are either working, gaming or staring at their tablet computer. If we speak 40 words a day I would be shocked.
I do sometimes say something but they don’t listen to me and I can’t repeat myself as I don’t have much energy due to the health issues so I don’t bother.
I can repeat myself 20 times in a row and they don’t hear me. They choose to filter me out to hear games, to read or just to do anything but listen.
Probably for the best as they can be really nasty to me. Really cruel.
So life is really depressing and it has a massive effect on my mood.
I would love to go out somewhere, a short break or a trip to a national park or something in nature.
I am crowdfunding an electric wheelchair as there is no way for me to get one from the NHS or any charity. I started it on Christmas Eve. It got a few donations and I got to 7%. It then stalled for a few months.
Thanks to one of my only and oldest friends hosted a charity stream for me for my wheelchair! Thanks to them I got over half way!
I still am a long way from hitting the goal though.
I really hope I can get a wheelchair this year. I can’t take being stuck inside much longer. It has been about 3 years now I think? Maybe longer to be honest! I couldn’t tell you the last time I went out!
It really is so depressing and I miss nature so much. Nature, wildlife and quiet beautiful places where nature lives is my love. I travelled for so many years and I miss it more than anything in the world. It is my main love and passion.
I have nothing without travel. I can’t see nature from inside 4 walls that I am stuck in every day.
If you would like to help at all, you can check out my fundraiser on JustGiving. Anything helps!
I have no relatives or any way to get it without the help of kind strangers.
Help me get my freedom.
https://www.justgiving.com/crowdfunding/powerchair-crowdfund
